“I Wish That Mommy Never Dies” — Helping My Preschooler Cope With Grief and Loss

Shani Thornton is a parent of two boys and works as a Certified Child Life Specialist in her community. She launched a child life and parenting website called ChildLifeMommy to provide resources to parents, child life specialists and medical providers. She enjoys spending time with her family, working out and filling gaps in service.

While visiting family during Christmas break, we decided to grab a bite to eat. I saw a fountain that would be a great distraction for my impatient four-and-a-half-year old while we waited to be seated. As I handed my son pennies to toss into the water, I had no idea that he would have such a powerful wish.

“I wish that Mommy never dies.”

His words took my breath away, as I stood there with a handful of copper pennies that were meant for garbage trucks, police cars and Legos.

Our family had experienced four deaths in just a short ten months, and my son was realizing the permanence of these deaths.

As a child life specialist that works to support children’s grief, I was witnessing my own son’s emotional torture of understanding death, coping with his fear of loss and trying to understand why his French bulldog couldn’t come back from heaven.

When we returned home from vacation, his grief began to manifest and triggered some separation anxiety. His transition back to school was challenging, bedtime was a struggle, and I noticed that he was constantly following me around the house.

One night before bed, he asked me if I was going to die. Part of me wanted to say, “No, never. Don’t think like that.” However, I took the alternative route of responding with empathy.

“You are so worried that something will happen to me. You love me so much and don’t want me to leave.”

He knew that I understood his fears, and I was giving him permission to express them.

Our conversation continued with lots of reassurance on how I take good care of my body and will hopefully live to be 100. We ended our talk with lots of giggles, cuddles and reminders that no matter where we are in the world, we are always connected.


Shani with her sons. Her older son is standing to her right with his left arm around Shani. He's wearing a long sleeve mulberry shirt with a light blue no sleeve down vest and tan pants. Shani is kneeling with her arms around both boys. She's wearing jeans and a long sleeve steel gray t-shirt. Her younger son is wearing a light and dark blue striped rugby shirt and jeans.

After I put him to bed, I had a plan in my head to help him work through his grief and cope with the separation issues. Here’s what I did:

  • Lots of validation — as soon as he began to get slightly upset about going to school, I named and validated his feelings. “You really don’t want to leave Mommy. You miss me so much when you are at school. I miss you, too.”
  • Normalize his emotions — I tried to follow up the validation with normalizing his thoughts and feelings. “It is so hard to go back to school after such a long break. Lots of kids feel the same way.”
  • One-on-one time — I made sure to spend some extra time with him each day. We sat and ate lunch together. I held his hand and carried him around while I smothered him with kisses.
  • Play — I got on the floor and played with him using a child-centered approach. I let him lead the play, choose the activity and gave him as much control as possible. I narrated what he was doing, named feelings and stayed present in the moment. It was a nice way for us both to feel reconnected.
  • Communication — I didn’t want his teachers to become frustrated with him as he struggled to separate from me at school. I was honest about the deaths, and let them know that we were helping him work through it.
  • Activities — I provided him with a variety of activities that promoted self-expression, coping strategies and memory-making around the losses.

The other day, he was getting worked up about going to school so I introduced him to an activity about staying connected.

First, I read him the beautifully written children’s book The Invisible String by Patrice Karst. It instantly resonated with him. Then, using construction paper, markers and lanyard, I helped him create his own invisible string.

He had lots of choices during the activity of what color paper, markers, freedom to draw whatever he liked and the length of the string (which ended up being eight feet). He then practiced pulling on the string as I acted out the tug from my heart. His face lit up with a smile, and I knew that he was beginning to feel a bit more safe.

Grief is hard to deal with, but if you allow kids to feel and express the unpleasant emotions through empathy, play and patience, they will develop healthy coping strategies and resilience.

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  • Angie Kelly says:

    This is such important information. I hope you consider expanding these ideas/activities into a workbook for families to provide specific direction to help children through grief.

    • Shani Thornton says:

      Thank you so much Angie, I appreciate your feedback. I often use similar activities when working with children coping with life’s challenges. It would be amazing one day to get it all written down in a book! In the meantime, I have many activities listed on my website at ChildLifeMommy.com.
      Thank you so much for the support.
      All the best,

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